RTS 2 .. a memorable story for me....
When I entered AIESEC, one year ago, on the 1st of April, RTS 2 was the first conference I went to..
Why was it so memorable that time? It was near my home town, in Poiana Zanelor, and there I fell in love with AIESEC, with the people that are trying their best for this organization and their LC's and I found also my dream... A dream that actually became reality this time around..
One year has past.. still.. nothing has changed since that time. I still feel the same passion about what I do and exactly like that time I fell in love again, only that this time with the new members that we've recruited this spring. This was their first interaction with AIESEC and all I can do is hope they will feel and experience, not the same, but a greater AIESEC and opportunities..
In AIESEC I found a saying that never stopped crossing my mind, not even for a second.. In my opinion it reflect the truth about what actually happens within the organization: "A mirror never puts out more than you put in". Hopefully they will learn fast what that means and enjoy every day...
Life has a weird way to show you the paths you can follow... Still you never see the one that you actually want... or need...
You get so comfortable with your life that you don't bother to look around any more, you take everything for granted although all can disappear in a blink of an eye. How come every time we are so lost in our own world we lose something that it's important to us... be it a pet, the favorite toy, the respect of others or other things?
Humans truly are amazing. In order to not make themselves feel the pain or gilt they are creating quotes. Like the saying : "In life nothing gets lost. For everything you lose you will gain a compensation". I guess I'm still waiting to see what this compensation can be...
Another interesting fact is that we only search for other doors or windows only because we lose something. I guess I'm still surprised how we can recover from every hit we take and how we evolve from a selfish child to an understanding adult.
It would be so nice if we could see from the beginning all the paths that are opened in front of you... It would save us so much trouble and suffering.. Still in the end we are only humans...
Look around you.. don't walk blindly through life...
Everybody knows that the session is coming.. we are all busy.. with exams, AIESEC :P.. still somehow today I managed to create myself a special hour just for me. What did I do in that hour? I've listened some songs that I really liked last year, I thought about the things that await me this and the following year... Somehow I keep smiling even though I'm tired and exhausted.
Part for the reason I created this hour is because I didn't had time to appreciate the people around me for their little sacrifices, that in the end are very valuable for every each one of us... So thank you for all the small things you give up every day, cause when you wrap it up it sums up a lot. :)
And also for a special person that helped me remain in AIESEC... Thank you Silviuta!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! and may your wishes come true :**
I realized I didn't put a post on my blog for a long time.. Well.. a lot of things happened and due to the small amount of time that I had I couldn't take a break and empty my soul here.
I guess now its the time to tell you about my experiences this month..
One of the most powerful was LCC.. I can guarantee I will never forget all the emotions I had, all the energy I felt, the heart I put into the candidature...
I still remember that I was supposed to hold my candidature after a break and the chair asked me if I want to make it sooner.. :) I started actually to panic but I was anxious so I said YES! The moment I went outside I leaned on the door and was waiting for the peoples reaction while they were watching my personal presentation. I smiled a lot behind that door and I played that presentation in my mind also.. The moment I came in I was relaxed and thought that this is what I've been working for the last months... When I started my professional presentation I actually got really scared: Is this something I can make it happen? Can I really make the OGX department grow? Will I disappoint this persons? This questions run through my mind while presenting all the information in front. The moment they switched to questions was the moment I felt the best. I was sure I know a lot of stuff, even if not everything and I really wanted to give my best.
Everything passed.. People were congratulating me for my candidature. I felt relieved.
The announcement moment during the LCC was the most painful one. I actually thought that I will not make it, that I didn't raised up to the expectation everybody had, that I failed... I was so happy when I found out I got the vote of trust that I actually cried. I felt that all the hard work was worth it. :)
The interview was interesting.. Also the announcement of the new EB.. Happy Happy :D... this is all I can tell.. Excitement 'till the end.. Unforgettable moments with the candidates and the new EB.. persons that also my friends..
Privind in urma la saptamana aceasta mi-am dat seama ca am facut multe schimbari in viata mea.. Am inceput sa ma simt din nou EU, cea care se bucura de o raza de soare, care zambeste privind un fluture sau o floare.. Presupun ca sunt fericita din nou.. A fost o saptamana in care am luat multe decizii referitor la cine vreau sa fiu, ce vreau sa fac mai departe in AIESEC, ce vreau sa fac mai departe pe plan personal.. Decizii care privind acuma in urma ma fac fericita.. Am inceput sa fac lucrurile pe care vroiam sa le fac, dar din anumite motive le tot amanam..
Un nou inceput de acum inainte si totul de la o esarfa mov.. :) .. Au urmat alte schimbari curand..Schimbari mici, dar care au avut un efect extraordinar asupra mea. Cred ca cel mai mult m-a ajutat faptul ca am mers in locul in care m-am simtit cel mai fericita ca si copil.
Atunci am simtit noul inceput.. Incredere, energie, vise de urmat, da.. ma simt eu :) Si simt ca am din nou puterea de a-mi urma dorintele, de a face imposibilul realitate, indiferent de ce spun ceilalti.. doar pentru ca.. VREAU ASTA.. pentru ca cred in mine si in visele mele :P
You know how it feels when you are down, when you don't know what to do in life, when you think about everything you done so far and still don't know which road to take from now on.. Well.. I guess I was these days in one of those moods.. Fortunately I watched a really good movie and there were those lines that touched me very deep and made me stand up and wish to fight more for who I am..
"When things get hard , you shouldn't start looking for something to blame.. Let me tell you something you already know: the world ain't sunshine and rainbows, it's a very mean and nasty place and it doesn't care how big and tough you are. It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. Nobody is going to hit you as hard as life. Life ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning in life it's done! And if you know what you're worth than go get what you're worth, but you gotta be willing to take the hits and not point your finger saying you ain't what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody else. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better then that!"
So believe in who you are and every time you fall down, stand up and keep moving forward :)
I was looking on youtube at some videos and than I found it.. I think it represents me, the one I am now, very good..
Enjoy it!