Fairy Tales

Happy

2010-07-07T15:31:00.000+03:00

I'm right now in the office. In Dublin it's around 1:00 PM. It's a full day of activity, everybody is working hard and is pumped up with energy. It's a beautiful day outside. I'm preparing myself for still a long to do's list. (Damn it!) and I'm smiling. It seems so right.. everything.. almost perfect. I'm glad I'm here, it's definitely the right place to be this year.

An advice for all those who read my blog: Have the courage to do what you think you should do and "grab" the opportunities you see fit for you. There is always "the right place" for you to be and when you get a no, it just means that wasn't the right one for you, not yet. :)

Have a smashing day

Cheers from Dublin to you all

Conversation miles away

2010-07-01T10:46:00.000+03:00

Well I arrived in Dublin. It's the same city, the same people and it give me the same feeling it did the other time I was here, it's peacefull and clouded :P

We moved in in our new home and are trying right now to set it up, the potential in here is amaizing. We had our first meal in the garden, found a super cheap store to buy groceries and others. It was an great day.

Later at night I had a little chat with Popo. It reminded me that my friends are so far right now. I miss them all, going out in Janis or having a sleep over with horror movies, just chatting all day long about all sort of problems. I just miss them!

And I have a little surprise for all of them :D.. soon to come :P

Special delivery up in the air!

2010-06-28T16:23:00.001+03:00

So.. this is a very special day for a dear friend of mine. She is currently up in the air! Today is her birthday and she is becoming 23 years old. Well I know her for only two years, but the bond that we have is pretty strong, strong enough to hold on although one of us will be in Latvia and the other one in Ireland. It was a fun year with ups and downs, but somehow we managed to save our friendship. What can I say about her? She is kind, loving, always there for you when you need her, my "gaza".. and I'm her "brotacel".

So for her birthday I have a wish for her: "Enjoy, Enjoy every single event, be it bad or good, Smile and always look at the sky when you are sad. There is somebody under the same sky that is watching it right now and thinking of you and always there for you when you need her."

Happy birthday Gaza!

Travel part 2 (Dublin and Pisa)

2010-06-09T18:57:00.004+03:00

So.. I traveled again.

First flight with the airplane.. and there it was Dublin.

From above all you could see was a mass of green covered in clouds. And then we landed.

Shock: It was raining... for the first time in 2 months. And of course the first step in made in the city.. and losing my passport. Getting lost in the rain, because we couldn't find the hotel.And finally enjoying every moment. Having cultural shocks, the pubs,the streets, the people, the weather.. It's truly amaizing!

And the Google office .. all I can say is WOW! Every floor with the design that fits most for the department, gaming rooms, fitness rooms, the working hours.. I wanna work there :D, if I knew I would have studies at Politehnica for sure.

After that Pisa, Italy. Hmm.. Well for me it was definitely not that impressive as I would have expected, but hey.. it was nice seeing another city.

And of course we tried to make the tower straighten, but it seems it doesn't work that easily :P. And then we tried to make it collapse.. that didn't seem to work either :D

And let me tell you something about Pisa... It's small.. It takes about 1 hours to walk from one end to the other of the city.. Somehow I thought it's bigger.

So in short word this was my second trip of my travel experience this year :D, but I'm sure glad I did it. And soon there are going to be more to tell, because on the 26th I'm going to leave Romania for one year and I'm going to miss it, I already know that, but I can't ignore how excited I am to leave and beginn something knew. So stay tuned for part 3!

Fortune cookie

2010-04-29T00:48:00.001+03:00

"A fanatic is one who can't change his mind, and won't change the subject."

Does that mean I'm a fanatic? :P

Bulgaria

2010-04-13T20:17:00.027+03:00

I arrived in Bucharest.. Went in the MC office, nothing strange, it seamed just like an ordinary other Friday. But by the end of the day, surprise: packing for Bulgaria .. :D

So early in the morning, we went in Bulgaria, to be more specific Schumen and afterward Varna

And it was AMAZING... I was having so much fun, it was sunny, a clear see, sea shells everywhere, clean water, a beautiful sunset, a good meal and cool people :P.. What more could I have wished for for my birthday? :D

Next morning.. we went further, Albena, a beautiful beach with amazing water and very soft sand :)

And last, but not least Bahlik, where we visited an amazing castle :)) and a new joke was born:

"Hai mai Ferdi fa-mi si mie un castel!"

So this was it.. 2 amazing days, which I wanted to share with you.. and so slowly but sure, my traveling journal begins :P

A nice moment

2010-04-07T15:30:00.002+03:00

I just had a weird morning..
I went in the MC office of AIESEC Romania and had one of the firsts professional talks with Vlad about Ireland. The weird part is that it felt so right... I could see how this year was going to be.. Profi, Fun, Open :) The kind of things and environment I love.

I'm looking at the MC.. both current and elect.. It makes me wanna smile involuntarily.. They have such a nice harmony, they are sparkling with energy.. and it motivates me so much.. even though I'm tired I still wanna do more.. :)

Impossible thing for today : Ireland is going to sign 3 TN's at the end of April. :P

First chapter of my new life

2010-03-31T22:09:00.004+03:00

I want to start a new chapter in my life. A new episode on who I am as a person, what makes me tick, what defines me and what can make me go on.

I never really thought about it that much, but I kinda lost a part of me and what makes me Anda this year. Still I want it to gain it back. I want to become again me, the one that was happy and was enjoying life with her friends.

So what if I am arrogant? So what if I have a critical feedback? So what if I can't make everybody happy?

If the people that are around me can't accept me and who I am, then maybe they are not really who I thought they are, maybe they are not truly my friends. Everybody does mistakes, but what makes us a good friend is forgiving what they did, accepting it, encouraging the one near us to take the road that they want to take, even if we don't agree with it, respect their point of view, but remaining true to ourselves.

So yes.. I don't want to give up on me because somebody does not like me or does not agree with me.. Too bad.. Life sucks.. I'll get over it.. But in the end at least I'll be happy.

And of course this beginning is accompanied by a new opportunity.. as MC LC Development of AIESEC Ireland. :D

I am happy and the ones that care about me are happy too :).. for the other ones.. balszerencse!

New turn

2009-12-15T01:57:00.000+02:00

It's akward how sometimes you believe you want something, but when you are on the verge of receiving it you realize it's not what you really wanted, it is just an additional benefit which you are not trully excited about. I guess.. this happened to me also these days.

I realized that I was hiding myself from seeing the truth, from reaching out and I just wanted to stay in a comfort zone where I knew what I could do. I was afraid to choose my future and to see pass my comfort zone.. but now I'm not anymore and I'm finally excited and trully motivated to start this amazing adeventure. I feel better than ever!

It was time to start a new chapter in my life and it couldn't happen in a better way..

Dream, Live, Act.... NOW

Let the new adventure begin :)

LPM - the new begining

2009-07-20T19:24:00.000+03:00

I just returned from LPM, our Local Planing Meeting..

What was actually very strange was the fact that my expectations for this conference were very low, still it was the most amazing conference I attended until now. It was a new start for our EB.. We are more united than ever and we came up with a lot of projects that are HUGE!!

We created our so called new culture, we were playing around, we were being professional, still always there for the members and talking to them, finding out what they need, how we can make things better for them, for us and for our LC.

We are a team, we are striving for big things, still nothing that can't be achieved if we put our minds and our effort together.

And strangely I had the same feeling as I had at my first conference, RTS 2 in 2008. At that conference I put my wishes and my hopes on a piece of paper and the next year, actually this year, they happened. I did the same thing now.. I put all my dreams that I have now on a piece of paper, hoping that these dreams will also become reality, dreaming awesomeness for AIESEC Cluj, for our members, for me :)

It's up to you to be AWESOME!!!

FOAIE VERDE CLUUUUUUUUJ!!!!

Strange things around...

2009-05-19T19:12:00.000+03:00

It's very strange how we change our perception on life in time...

It's strange how things change around us in a blink of an eye...

It's strange when I think back at my childhood and how happy I was with the people that cared for me.. and now everything is gone.. they don't remember me..

Strangely I thought I found a new home, a new me... sadly I was disappointed..

Gladly I found new friends: Lou - which always makes me smile or is there when I'm down, Reiutza - which answered the phone even in the middle of the night and tried to cheer me up, Ibi - who ties her best and cares so much about the people around her, Ral - with her crazy ideas and which always destresses the athmosphere, Puck - with her nuts ideas :P, Adi - who brings me back with the feet on earth, Silly - who is going to go "cucuc" when he will read this >:) and many others... Clau - the person I think I would love to work to the most and actually I really match in orgnisatorical ideas, Dutzu and Ela - I really miss talking to them and giving me advice, or Vladutz - which I miss the most...

I guess some things will never change.. People come and go in our life, but friends should remain..

Life has it's own beauty, but still it depends so much on each of us if we stay down or look up for a better day...

So today smile.. there will be a sunny day tomorrow... "Wake up, it's a beautifull day today" :P

RTS 2

2009-04-05T23:36:00.000+03:00

RTS 2 .. a memorable story for me....

When I entered AIESEC, one year ago, on the 1st of April, RTS 2 was the first conference I went to..
Why was it so memorable that time? It was near my home town, in Poiana Zanelor, and there I fell in love with AIESEC, with the people that are trying their best for this organization and their LC's and I found also my dream... A dream that actually became reality this time around..

One year has past.. still.. nothing has changed since that time. I still feel the same passion about what I do and exactly like that time I fell in love again, only that this time with the new members that we've recruited this spring. This was their first interaction with AIESEC and all I can do is hope they will feel and experience, not the same, but a greater AIESEC and opportunities..

In AIESEC I found a saying that never stopped crossing my mind, not even for a second.. In my opinion it reflect the truth about what actually happens within the organization: "A mirror never puts out more than you put in". Hopefully they will learn fast what that means and enjoy every day...

Choosing a path..

2009-01-16T21:20:00.001+02:00

Life has a weird way to show you the paths you can follow... Still you never see the one that you actually want... or need...
You get so comfortable with your life that you don't bother to look around any more, you take everything for granted although all can disappear in a blink of an eye. How come every time we are so lost in our own world we lose something that it's important to us... be it a pet, the favorite toy, the respect of others or other things?
Humans truly are amazing. In order to not make themselves feel the pain or gilt they are creating quotes. Like the saying : "In life nothing gets lost. For everything you lose you will gain a compensation". I guess I'm still waiting to see what this compensation can be...
Another interesting fact is that we only search for other doors or windows only because we lose something. I guess I'm still surprised how we can recover from every hit we take and how we evolve from a selfish child to an understanding adult.
It would be so nice if we could see from the beginning all the paths that are opened in front of you... It would save us so much trouble and suffering.. Still in the end we are only humans...
Look around you.. don't walk blindly through life...

Wrap up...

2009-01-10T23:36:00.000+02:00

Everybody knows that the session is coming.. we are all busy.. with exams, AIESEC :P.. still somehow today I managed to create myself a special hour just for me. What did I do in that hour? I've listened some songs that I really liked last year, I thought about the things that await me this and the following year... Somehow I keep smiling even though I'm tired and exhausted.
Part for the reason I created this hour is because I didn't had time to appreciate the people around me for their little sacrifices, that in the end are very valuable for every each one of us... So thank you for all the small things you give up every day, cause when you wrap it up it sums up a lot. :)

And also for a special person that helped me remain in AIESEC... Thank you Silviuta!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! and may your wishes come true :**

LCC..

2008-12-28T22:16:00.000+02:00

I realized I didn't put a post on my blog for a long time.. Well.. a lot of things happened and due to the small amount of time that I had I couldn't take a break and empty my soul here.
I guess now its the time to tell you about my experiences this month..
One of the most powerful was LCC.. I can guarantee I will never forget all the emotions I had, all the energy I felt, the heart I put into the candidature...
I still remember that I was supposed to hold my candidature after a break and the chair asked me if I want to make it sooner.. :) I started actually to panic but I was anxious so I said YES! The moment I went outside I leaned on the door and was waiting for the peoples reaction while they were watching my personal presentation. I smiled a lot behind that door and I played that presentation in my mind also.. The moment I came in I was relaxed and thought that this is what I've been working for the last months... When I started my professional presentation I actually got really scared: Is this something I can make it happen? Can I really make the OGX department grow? Will I disappoint this persons? This questions run through my mind while presenting all the information in front. The moment they switched to questions was the moment I felt the best. I was sure I know a lot of stuff, even if not everything and I really wanted to give my best.
Everything passed.. People were congratulating me for my candidature. I felt relieved.
The announcement moment during the LCC was the most painful one. I actually thought that I will not make it, that I didn't raised up to the expectation everybody had, that I failed... I was so happy when I found out I got the vote of trust that I actually cried. I felt that all the hard work was worth it. :)
The interview was interesting.. Also the announcement of the new EB.. Happy Happy :D... this is all I can tell.. Excitement 'till the end.. Unforgettable moments with the candidates and the new EB.. persons that also my friends..

Changes..

2008-10-05T19:04:00.003+03:00

Privind in urma la saptamana aceasta mi-am dat seama ca am facut multe schimbari in viata mea.. Am inceput sa ma simt din nou EU, cea care se bucura de o raza de soare, care zambeste privind un fluture sau o floare.. Presupun ca sunt fericita din nou.. A fost o saptamana in care am luat multe decizii referitor la cine vreau sa fiu, ce vreau sa fac mai departe in AIESEC, ce vreau sa fac mai departe pe plan personal.. Decizii care privind acuma in urma ma fac fericita.. Am inceput sa fac lucrurile pe care vroiam sa le fac, dar din anumite motive le tot amanam..
Un nou inceput de acum inainte si totul de la o esarfa mov.. :) .. Au urmat alte schimbari curand..Schimbari mici, dar care au avut un efect extraordinar asupra mea. Cred ca cel mai mult m-a ajutat faptul ca am mers in locul in care m-am simtit cel mai fericita ca si copil.

Atunci am simtit noul inceput.. Incredere, energie, vise de urmat, da.. ma simt eu :) Si simt ca am din nou puterea de a-mi urma dorintele, de a face imposibilul realitate, indiferent de ce spun ceilalti.. doar pentru ca.. VREAU ASTA.. pentru ca cred in mine si in visele mele :P

Life :)

2008-09-21T21:22:00.000+03:00

You know how it feels when you are down, when you don't know what to do in life, when you think about everything you done so far and still don't know which road to take from now on.. Well.. I guess I was these days in one of those moods.. Fortunately I watched a really good movie and there were those lines that touched me very deep and made me stand up and wish to fight more for who I am..
"When things get hard , you shouldn't start looking for something to blame.. Let me tell you something you already know: the world ain't sunshine and rainbows, it's a very mean and nasty place and it doesn't care how big and tough you are. It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. Nobody is going to hit you as hard as life. Life ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning in life it's done! And if you know what you're worth than go get what you're worth, but you gotta be willing to take the hits and not point your finger saying you ain't what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody else. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better then that!"
So believe in who you are and every time you fall down, stand up and keep moving forward :)

Breathing..

2008-09-11T14:50:00.000+03:00

I was looking on youtube at some videos and than I found it.. I think it represents me, the one I am now, very good..
Enjoy it!

Finding my light

2008-08-25T16:38:00.000+03:00

Lately lot of things happened... and although I wished that all of them were good, the most of them were really bad. It makes me feel sad, exhausted, in pain.. but what can I do? I can't oppose the nature of things, all I can do is hope for the best. But how can I when I'm not able to see to light at the end of the tunnel? What should be the feeling when you find out that the person you always admired is on the edge? What should you do when you find out you have a really bad chronic disease? What should you do when you feel alone? What should you do when you feel too tired to fight? What should you do when you are weak? Those question are haunting me .. What should I do? I keep saying that everything it is alright, but I know it isn't. The moment when I have to face them all is so near.. But I still want to escape from them...
I kept thinking why I don't want to face them, it's not because I'm afraid, I got used to see that everything vanishes in my life, it is because I believe there should be a light.. somewhere there.. just for me.. my light... the power to go on.. the power to hope..
Hopes.. Dreams.. I don't want to give them up.. I don't want to see all those bad things because I can still fly and I know that the moment that I will acknowledge them I will be forced to stop ..
I guess I will have to find a way to deal with them and to keep my ability to fly in the same moment.. It just takes courage.. :)

Reminescence

2008-08-12T21:27:00.000+03:00

I woke up today thinking why I am the person who I am? Those moments were very often lately and I couldn't really answer them 'till now... I reevaluated the values that I have been living for those past years and hoped to find myself again in them.. but I had a surprise... some of them changed...

Some years ago I realized that so many people walk thru life without being actually happy, because they didn't had the courage to say no or because they were to afraid to strive for something grater, to risk it... they go thru life without noticing what is happening around them and wake up at night feeling alone, they don't stop not even for a second to see the beauty of a sunset.. But can you actually call this living? I always saw them as cowards, people who are not able to face the truth and are hiding behind lies.. they create their one little word in order to survive.. not to live...
That's when I decided I wouldn't be one of those persons that are hiding behind something it doesn't exist.. and in order to sustain my wish I created my own little values... which were guiding me thru my life until now...

1. I will always smile! - Smile was the one thing that helped me a lot dealing with the problems I had.. when times were bad I smiled, confusing the people around me, making them unsure in them, but making me see the light at the end of the tunnel.. In the end I had the courage to smile at those people who actually hated me and making them my friends..

2. Pain is something in my imagination, thus I won't show any sign of pain! - This guideline brought to me a lot of difficult moments, lonely and unhappy moments, crying my heart out somewhere where nobody could see me.. but in the end.. never showing how painful it was.. making others look at me and hearing them say what a strong person I am and me always thinking that it's the opposite.. I still don't show to people when I suffer, but my reason changed in time, it is not because I wan't to be strong.. it's because I don't want the people that are caring for me to be worried.. Lately I had the courage to cry and to say "it hurts!"..

3. Always stop to see the beauty of small and simple things! - I realized that I couldn't be happy if I will never stop to admire the beauty of a flower.. to play with some stray dog.. to be thankful that I'm living here and now.. and to appreciate everything I have.. this is how people can truly find happiness, not by searching for perfection...

4. Being surrounded by friends and always being there for them! - This was the value that I developed thru a lot of tears, making people lose their trust in me, because I was to afraid to let them in my life and in the end seeing that I can't be happy alone and that I prefer to suffer and to have great moments, then having nothing to be thankful for... You can't taste at the fullest the flavors of life if you concentrate just on one of those feelings.. Sometimes you have to cry, to be in pain, to think there is not tomorrow in order to see how happy you actually are and to be willing to fight for what you want and what you believe in..

5. Being onest to yourself and to others, dare to face every moment, be it pleasent or not!

6. Have the courage to dream, have the courage to be yourself, have the courage to strive for more!

The things that define me.. put simple.. in 6 little values... Values that I always respected and values that made my life more beautyful then it is...

SMILE! :)